creating happiness

I experienced a feeling of coming full circle for something that almost destroyed my life. Years ago, i  developed a very bad pain in my lower back. Throughout that experience, I was given opioid medicine for the pain. As time went on, as I became used to it, so I would need higher doses. Before i knew it, I was neck deep. I was was able, with a lot of help of many people, to break free. I did very well, I think, but there were many moments of weakness I had to struggle through. When we recently began talking about me having back surgery, the concerns again arose. I was fine for pain meds while I was in the hospital. My worries were about after leaving the hospital. I really didn't want them in the house. Reluctantly, I was prescribed some. For the first day or two, they were needed for the pain. My wife would leave it for me to use at night so I could be comfortable enough to sleep. One night I picked it up in my fingers looking at it. I thought to myself, I'm not even...